Bullet List Update

Hey guys! Please forgive me for not getting back to you sooner. There were so many times I wanted to blog, but I kept waiting until I had something really substantial to tell you guys about. Unfortunately, I sit here writing you with only a few menial things to update you on. To the bullet list Batman!

• Working out: It's going great! Tonight I will be starting my third week of consecutive, 3x a week TNT classes, and so far it's great. There have been more than one occasions where I thought I was going to lose my lunch, but thankfully I've been puke-free. I'm pushing myself as much as I can, but I've got a mild case of shin splints and my knees are killing me, so my running is really sucking. In all honesty, I think it's my shoes that aren't helping, so we'll see if I switch it up tonight if I feel any better. The shoes I've been wearing lately have been my new Nike's. And while there is nothing wrong with Nike, they tend to run narrow and have a high arch. I am very much flat footed and therefore also wide footed, so finding a comfortable pair of shoes is a nightmare. I was thinking of trying some Vibrams (or any similar brands), thinking if I can let my foot just be as natural as possible, it may help, but I'm not sure. The only brand I've found, that gives me no hassle, is New Balance. I may just need to invest in some of those. I guess only time will tell! 
• Dieting: Last week I did pretty well. I did splurge this weekend, but I seem to have more self-control when I'm on my work schedule. When I'm at home, it seems that all my dieting goes out the window. I will say though, Monday through Friday I am bread and pasta free, and that in itself is an accomplishment. It's the small victories guys. 
• Metformin: My doc approved me for it and sent in the prescription for me. I picked it up on Saturday and chickened out on taking it all the way up until Wednesday night. I was nervous about the nausea, and other gross side effects, and was very leery about taking it. Finally, I just bit the bullet and took it. I take it with food everytime, so that's helping. And so far the only side effects I'm getting is, sorry!, diarrhea. Which, actually, I would prefer over nausea. It's also weird, but I feel like I'm hungrier. Maybe it's the dieting, or maybe it really is the Metformin, but I seem to be hungry every two-three hours. Which coincides correctly with the eating plan I'm on, but I think my body seems to be adjusting to the medication fairly well. Unfortunately, I haven't weighed myself yet, so I'm unsure if I've lost any weight, but I will soon get a scale to track my progress and keep you guys updated! If you care at all...
• Emotionally: I'm doing a lot better! I seem to have found something else to focus on other than my sadness and longing for a baby. I still get jealous when people post on Facebook that they are pregnant, or if someone cryptically writes that they have, "such amazing news!! We are so blessed!!" I prepare myself for another baby announcement, but I seem to be able to move past it a lot easier than before. The longing and the desire for a baby is still there, I'm just not allowing it to consume me as much as it was there for a while. Instead, I turn it in to motivation at trying to become a healthier, more-fit me. It's a nice change of scenery. I will admit I had a minor setback last week though. I had some girl on Tumblr tell me to try losing weight and maybe then I'd get pregnant. I harbored that thought for the entire rest of my day, which was dumb because I let some stranger, who doesn't even know me, get to me, but regardless is hurt. Thankfully that night I had my workout class so I was able to work through that!  
• On the baby front: I'm 90% sure I ovulated a couple days ago, so we'll see in 2 weeks if Aunt Flow shows up or not. Of course we weren't trying "hardcore" this month, so I'm not expecting anything, but we have fully decided that this will be the last round until September. For the next 4 months I am not going to be peeing on any ovulation sticks, taking any medication (besides my Metformin) and I am not going to be charting my cycle. I don't even know what cycle day I am on right now, to tell you the truth. It's weird how liberating this is feeling! I'm still going to keep this blog as our journey through this infertility is not coming to a close, I will probably just talk about other things going on in my life. Such as my stepson gets here in June and we are having fun planning all kinds of fun things to do this summer while he's visiting. We're also revisiting the idea of buying a house soon, so I may be blogging about that. Basically, whatever I want to blog about, haha. My life, My self, is not defined by Infertility alone, so why should I allow my blog to be? 

Well, I think that's pretty much all of it. I'm sure if I missed something I'll be back to bore you guys with more meaningless junk. In the meantime, as always, good luck and baby dust to all of you!!