10 weeks update!!

Pregnancy Survey Fun!

How Far Along: I say 9 weeks 6 days, OB says 10 weeks 1 day. 

Weight Gain: 3 pound 

Innie or Outtie: Innie

Maternity Clothes: Not since my last purchase. 

Stretch Marks: On my hips. WAH!  

Sleep: is ok. My left side is preferred. But when I wake up, my back is killing me!

Pregnancy Perk: Curtis is still being super incredible. 

Embarrassing Pregnant Moment: My endless gas

Baby Purchases this week: None yet still. Waiting on the sexes! 

Best quote regarding baby this week: "Only because I like you" - my doctor sneaking us in for an sonogram. 

Gender: No idea yet!

Movement: None that I can feel yet, but I know they are in there moving like crazy!!

Food Cravings: Teriyaki wings from Buffalo Wild Wings. And tacos.  

Food Aversions: Nothing 

Labor Signs: None

How’s Mama? Tired, irritable, a crying-mess...on cloud nine :)

What I am looking forward to:  Seeing the babies again in 2 weeks!

Our Baby in Veggie/Fruit Terms: Prunes I guess

Milestones: We hit the 10 week mark!! 

Graduation to our OBGYN (1st appt)

I'm obviously doing just a wonderful job of keeping up with this blog aren't I? I am so so sorry that I have kept many of you in the dark. As excited as I am about this pregnancy (FINALLY!) and wanting to shout it from the rooftops or blab nonstop about it to anyone I come in contact with, I've been incredibly reserved. Maybe it's the infertility mentality, maybe it's just normal, but I felt like the more I talked about it, the more I was "jinxing" it and the babies might just disappear in to thin air! That's pretty cray cray right?! Alas, I just didn't want to blog or talk or anything about it to anyone besides my close family and friends. I just felt that once we got closer to the 9-10 week mark, I would magically feel better and more secure. Which leads us to where we are now..

Yesterday was our first appointment with my OBGYN*. That means that when we wen in for our last ultrasound with our RE we did in fact see and hear the heartbeats (the most beautiful sound in the world) and we were able to move on to the next step! I called my OB as soon as we got in the car hoping that we would get in to see her ASAP. Turns out, we would have to wait 3 weeks before we saw her again! All those crazy thoughts crept back in and I kept worrying that we would go in for a sonogram and see that the babies had stopped growing or something else horrendous.
We got to the appointment and the lady at the front desk hands me a big black bag. Inside it were all kinds of goodies: formula (although I plan to breastfeed), a bottle, journal, baby info, pre-registration for the hospital, etc. It was so neat! When we finally went back to the room, I asked the triage nurse if I was getting an ultrasound. She said, "It's not ordered, but you can ask your doctor." My heart sank. I just wanted to make sure my babies were ok**!! The doctor came in and was so happy to see us for a new OB appt. She had helped us with trying to get pregnant the first few months, but we soon had to move on to the RE since their office can do the more intricate procedures. I immediately jumped in to, "Can I get an ultrasound? Please. I just want to make sure that they are growing..." She smiled and said, "Ok, but only cause I like you." All the weight lifted off my shoulders. Have I ever mentioned that I have been incredibly blessed with amazing doctors?? Even if I say it 100,000 times, it will never be enough.
Anyways, the appt was pretty standard. Went over our history, asked how I was feeling, checked my heart and lungs and asked if we had any questions. She also said according to our insemination our due date is more like July 6th, but she's only going to push for us to get 38 weeks. She is also willing to do a vaginal birth, as long as our babies cooperate. Also, we are considered high risk, but she's not going to see us every two weeks. She thinks that as long as everything is going great, every 4 weeks (until 28 weeks) is just fine. After 28 weeks, we move to every 2 weeks. I'm really happy to hear that as long as the babies and I are healthy, there's no reason to go overboard on checking, testing etc. She did, however, suggest we do the Nuchal test since the risk for downs is higher for twins. We agreed and that ultrasound is scheduled for the 21st. At that time, they can also tell me if the twins are fraternal or identical. Then, of course, is the anatomy scan at 18 weeks. We got a postcard in the mail for a 3D/4D "sneek peak" at 15 weeks, but it's $75 per session and we would need 2, hence a double charge. I'm thinking that we can wait for the 18 week mark!

Next, came the quicky ultrasound. She literally snuck us in front of other people and just gave us a quick look to see them (no measuring or heartbeat listening, which is bummer, but I'll see them in 2 weeks anyways. Here's what our little babies look like at 10 weeks:

See the one on the right waving?? I'll be honest, I didn't cry at the first and second ultrasound. This one?? I wanted to sob my eyes out! They were moving around and looking so cute and big (even though they are only the size of like a prune)! I couldn't believe how much they had changed in just 3 weeks! It was simply amazing. After seeing them happy and moving and growing (right on schedule, maybe even a few days ahead), all of my fears just disappeared. It's just...awesome. That's the only way I can describe it. 

Well, since I think this blog post has gone a bit TOO long, I'm gonna go ahead and put the survey (and a belly shot!) in another post. Be on the lookout to see how big I've gotten***!! As always, love you all and lots of baby dust to any ttc/infertiles! 

*Fun fact: Our OBGYN is my RE's OBGYN and yesterday morning, she delivered his newest set of twin boys (he already has twin girls) via C-section. Pretty awesome huh?!

**I wasn't having any symptoms or anything, I'm just a crazy worrier...aka Mom right? 

***ZOMG. And it's only just begun!

First Ultrasound!

To start off, can I blame my lack of blogging on the pregnancy? No? Well, guess who's gonna do it anyways, THIS GIRL. 

Honestly though, I don't know why it took me so long to type this post. I just kept putting it off for some insane reason. But without further adieu, the ultrasound results:

Some of you should be able to tell by this picture how much our lives are going to change in 7 months. For those who think we're having an owl, have no fear! There will be no feathered friend of Harry Potter coming out of my vagina around July 1st, however there will be TWO BABIES. 

Yup, you read that right, We are pregnant with TWINS! 

As you can see, the twin on the left is a bit bigger than the one on the right, leading us to believe that they are fraternal. They are measuring 6 weeks 4 days & 6 weeks 5 days big at the time of the ultrasound, which changed my due date to June 30th/July 1st, although I'm sure that will change no less than 5 more times before the babies actually get here. 

Um, that's pretty much the update for now. We have another ultrasound with our RE tomorrow at 2:30pm, where we get to see the heartbeats! Then, he said we would be able to graduate on to our OBGYN! 

In the meantime, in between the exciting ultrasounds and other testing stuff I'll talk about, I figured I'd do a weekly update with these pregnancy surveys. Sorry if you find them super annoying, but I know I'll forget something if I try to type it out in a blog format. 

Pregnancy Survey Fun!

How Far Along: 7 weeks 1 day

Weight Gain: 1 pound 

Innie or Outtie: Innie

Maternity Clothes: I bought one pair of maternity jeans and a plus-size sweater from Target.

Stretch Marks: No new ones.  

Sleep: is GLORIOUS and I wish I could get at least two additional naps in a day!

Pregnancy Perk: Husband is being so helpful and doting. 

Embarrassing Pregnant Moment: Grunting while I poop. 

Baby Purchases this week: Haven't started buying for them just yet. 

Best quote regarding baby this week: "You're gonna get so fat!" - My dad, brother and husband. 

Gender: No idea yet!

Movement: None yet

Food Cravings: Nothing that I just "have to have!", but Mexican food is wonderful all the time and Jolly Rancher Crunch'n'Chews are delicious. 

Food Aversions: Nothing that really stands out, just thinking of food makes me feel nauseous, until I eat it. 

Labor Signs: None

How’s Mama? Tired, severely constipated (thanks progesterone supplements), bloated, very sore boobs, and just tired. 

What I am looking forward to:  Seeing the heartbeats tomorrow! 

Our Baby in Veggie/Fruit Terms: My app says a couple of blueberries! 

Milestones: At the risk of sounding cheesy, every week we hit is considered a milestone to me!

What to Expect When You're Expecting (The Movie)

It's rare that I watch a movie or read a book and want to do a review on it, but since this movie hits pretty close to home, I figured I needed to give my opinion on it. Well, maybe I don't really need to, but I'm going to, so deal with it!

*Warning* I will be posting spoilers, so if you haven't seen the movie and don't want is spoiled, please stop reading now!

Overall the movie was pretty good. Of course with my hormones in overdrive, I had quite a few moments where I broke down and cried:

- When the younger couple had a miscarriage. That is currently my WORST FEAR and I cried like a friggin' baby when that happened.
- When J.Lo had her breakdown regarding IVF and bad eggs and it being her fault and spending all their 401K on the treatments. I still tear up thinking about that moment!
- When Elizabeth Banks had her c-section and lost all that blood so she coded on the table and they rushed the husband out. Another fear of mine and, well, tears...just tears.
-Then, of course, when J.Lo got her baby from Ethiopia.

There were parts that I really enjoyed:

- How Elizabeth Banks' character just loathed being pregnant. It just goes to show that even though we infertiles give anything and everything to get pregnant, we can still hate it the whole time. It's like, people just assume that since we're finally pregnant, we finally got what we fought so hard for, we will act all CareBears and Rainbows (like Brooklyn Decker's character). I can't tell you how many times I see infertile women complain about pregnancy and people just rip in to her because "How dare you be miserable? That means you're ungrateful!". I think it accurately portrayed that not every pregnancy is the same and the end result, a beautiful baby, is what everyone is truly after.
- Chris Rock and the rest of the "Dad's Club" was straight hilarity! "Last week, my kid ate a cigarette." It just goes to show that you won't be the mythical "perfect parent" and that's ok. Just, please don't let your kid ingest too many cigarettes, mmkay?
- Elizabeth Banks peeing on no less than 5 pregnancy tests. I took 3 the morning I found out and if I hadn't given my other one to a cousin, I would probably pee on it too.
- Joe Manganiello doing pull-ups while being shirtless. HUMINA HUMINA!

The part that kinda pissed me off:

- You soon realize in the beginning that Elizabeth Banks and her husband have been trying to have a baby for a while. She has an alarm go off on her phone (to alert her to the fact that she is ovulating) and she desperately grabs her husband to jump his bones. That part is more or less true, at least I know that feeling and I have seen the "husband's" hesitation as sex has become like an "routine/act" as opposed to spontaneous and fun.
Later on (I'm assuming that day) the wife and husband go on a date and the wife announces that she wants to "quit trying" for a while, "just enjoy being married" as she downs a glass of wine after not drinking for 2 years. This, of course, leads to unscheduled sex. A few weeks down the road, BAM!, she finds out she's pregnant.
The entire scene I just mentioned above implies to the audience that because they finally had "spontaneous, relaxing sex" that they wound up pregnant. That just as soon as she decided to "stop trying", she got what she wanted. To me, that is just ridiculous. Yes, we all hear of these magical couples who try and try and as soon as they decide to stop trying, the get pregnant...but people, that's 1 in 8 odds. It does not happen to everyone. AND it has been proven that stress is not correlated with being fertile or infertile! It's seriously one of the most frustrating things when people tell me a story about a couple that just "gave up and they finally got pregnant". It's rare and guess what, it doesn't always work! So for the movie to imply that, I was a pretty ticked off. I have yet to find a movie that accurately portrays what most infertile couples go through. Even Baby Mama pissed me off a bit, but that's a different (if ever) review.

Bottom line, if you happen to speak to someone who is having difficulty trying to conceive, don't tell them to "Relax and it'll happen" or share a story about "This one couple who stopped trying/adopted and BAM! got pregnant"...just give them a hug and offer them decaf coffee/tea or a glass of wine, depending on where they are in their cycle.

Well, there's my review. I'm sure I'm missing some parts (I watched the movie on Saturday and I've slept A LOT since then), but if you'd like to add something, feel free to comment below!

As always, baby dust and good thought!